In high school, I fell hard into the trap of comparison. I would think, if only I looked like her or had that, or didn't have this, THEN my life would be great.
I compared my own personality, thinking my gentle nature was weak and boring.
I was trapped in the impossible strive for perfectionism.
And worst of all, I took on the damaging words and labels people spoke over me (intentional or not). I BELIEVED I WASN’T ENOUGH!
I based my worth on how others saw me and what they did to me.
This prevented me from fully living my life, always hoping something would change and THEN, then I'll be happy with myself. I waited. And waited. And cried. And waited.
There was NOTHING I could do, nothing I could say, nothing I could change (on the surface) to make me FEEL enough, accepted and happy with myself.
Because WHAT I WAS WAITING FOR WAS ALREADY WITHIN ME. I just didn't know it yet.
I had been so focused on comparing, on proving myself, on thinking I needed to fix something, that I WAS BLINDED TO THE INFINITE WORTH AND VALUE I ALWAYS HAD.
Let me also point out, that I didn't even realize I was doing any of these things... They were so ingrained in me that I wasn't even aware I was feeding this destruction.
That's why they say comparison is the THIEF of joy - it comes and steals your contentment without you even knowing it was there.
NOW AND THEN.
It's been a journey and a process. None of these things I used to wish away have changed. It's my perspective and understanding that has.
Understanding who I am is enough - not based on what I do, how accepted I feel by others, my achievements, my appearance, or how I'm dealing with a current situation.
Through it all, I AM ENOUGH.
It's not when... then I'll be enough. It's right now, all of me, just as I am. No matter what. I AM MORE THAN ENOUGH.
And so are you!
👉🏻 What blinds you from knowing your worth and value? Unrealistic expectations? People’s opinions? Striving for worthiness? Your past?
Those things don’t define you.
It’s a perspective shift. Your worth is within.
💜Ruth x
Infinite Worth & Value
